Monday, 5 February 2018

How to Find Peace When Life Feels Abnormal


Abnormal. That was my answer.

The word, though awkward and uncomfortable, had slipped easily off my tongue.

It was the word that Fear had been whispering to me (sometimes even screaming at me) for the past several years.

Fear. It seems like he’s always there lurking in the shadows waiting to pounce on me.

At times he jumps out at me suddenly and knocks me right off my feet, as he screams that ‘spine-chilling’ word – abnormal. Other times he sneaks up on me, stealthy and cunning, until we are walking hand in hand and then he whispers poison in my ears.

Abnormal. Yep, Fear reminds me, that pretty much sums up my life in recent times.

It was the way life felt when I lost my dad a couple of years ago. Yes, he’s was older and we kind of knew where his sickness was heading, but not having my dad around was hard to get used to. That gaping hole, the sadness and grief on repeat - abnormal.

Then just over a year later, fear and panic give way to searing pain, when my youngest brother could not be found. A seasoned seaman lost at sea – abnormal. A young man gone so soon – abnormal. Life without him… without my dad… abnormal.

Then there were the botched plans that further threw me off my ‘normal’, but a few months ago when I emerged from my refuge and observed the devastation left by Hurricane Irma, I waved a final goodbye to ‘normal’.  

I had become familiar with abnormal.

So, when the question was asked on our way back from dropping my first born off at his new college apartment… a trip that Fear had invited himself along on, it was no surprise that ‘abnormal’ bobbed quickly to the surface. It’s not the kind of word that’s easy to keep down.

The question - a ‘brainsparker’ chosen at random by my daughter to stimulate a thought provoking conversation - ‘State the problem in one word’.

My ready answer – ‘Abnormal’.

What is your answer?

I thought it curious how the question assumes that a problem exists. But then again, in this life there usually is one. A problem – something that bumps into you, and pulls the ‘normal’ right out from under you.

What about you? Has abnormal become a way of life for you? Does the very word conjure up fear? Have you given up on finding your new ‘normal’?


Well, my friend, I’m now in my latest phase of abnormal. There have been more phases than I care to count.  But rather than fight it, I’m learning how to befriend it.

And it’s for one simple reason.

It is within the abnormal, that I find my ‘Normal’.

You see, as I look back at all my ‘abnormal’ phases I see a pattern emerge.

I see a common thread woven through those times… the times when I lost my dad and my brother, when my well-laid plans were derailed, when I was displaced from my damaged home, when I dropped my son off almost a year earlier than expected, yes throughout all these ‘abnormal’ times, one true ‘Normal’ shines through.

It’s in the gentle whisper that shatters my fear. Every time. A ‘still, small voice’ that soothes my weary, anxious soul with three simple words – ‘I am here’.

It’s in the comfort and hope I find when I retreat to a quiet place to be with Him – my God and Father - and when He reminds me of His love, His faithfulness and His sovereignty.

It’s in the assurance that He will never change…that His love lasts forever and that no matter what He will always be by my side.

It’s a ‘normal’ I see easier when life feels abnormal.

And the amazing paradox of it all… my God is not ‘normal’. Not even in the slightest.

He is not average or regular or usual. He is above all. Period. (Psalm 97:9) And He can do exceedingly above all things that we ask or imagine (Ephesians 3:20). He is, I guess we can say, SUPER-NORMAL; although the word doesn’t quite stretch high enough for Him.

So, no matter how ‘abnormal’ life may feel, or what Fear screams at me, I remember that my super-normal God promises me that His presence, His power, His protection and provision will always be ‘normal’ for me.

When Fear tries to draw me in, inviting me to hide in the shadows with him, I can refuse to cower and stand in the light of my ‘Normal’.

And when Fear jumps across my path screaming – ‘Abnormal!’ –  encouraging me to run or fight – to strive with all my might to put things back right – I can stand in the armour of my ‘Normal’ and remember Who fights for me.

It’s the 'Normal' I cling to which leads me to a peace that I can’t explain. A peace that’s not normal… a peace that carries me through my ‘abnormal’.

Today, I'm praying that same peace for you no matter what the problem may be.

Blessings,

Carlie




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21 comments:

  1. Powerful story and love this concept of peace during "abnormal" times. Thanks for sharing!

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  2. So thankful that God is able to provide peace from outside ourselves not matter what our surroundings. 2017 was a tumultuous year, and yet God stayed the same. Blessings to you!

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  3. I would say that most of life is "abnormal" but thankfully we have a God who is steadfast and faithful through it all. He is always with us and has always provided and given me peace through all the hard times. Our God is good and powerful! Blessings to you! I'm your neighbor at #TuneInThursday.

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    1. Thanks for visiting, neighbour :) and for your faith-filled comment.

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  4. Goodness how I love the reminder that God is not normal, average or predictable. He is ... well God! And that is the truth that can make all our abnormals bearable... because we go through them held by our extraordinary God! Thanks

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    1. '...held by our extraordinary God!' So thankful for this truth. Blessings to you, Karen.

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  5. This brought such consolation to my soul this morning! We've been in a very abnormal season for a few months now, and it feels like one thing after another . . . What peace I find in knowing that Jesus has been with us through it all. This has been my greatest reminder lately. He is here, and he is good, even when the storms of life make my world something I can hardly recognize. Thank you for these words today!

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    1. Stacy, my heart aches for you but I'm so grateful that you experience that peace that surpasses all understanding. I know that feeling of abnormal too but then, there's God. And just as you said, He is here and He is good! Blessings.

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    2. Oh, Stacey! Don’t you just love how personal our God is... how He gives us just the encouragement we need at the right time. So grateful for a God who stays by us when life becomes unrecognizable. Praying for you, my friend.

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  6. This is a beautiful testimony, Carlie! Just beautiful! Thanks for sharing!

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    1. Thank you, Kelly! I really appreciate your encouragement. Praying that it blesses others!

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  7. Beautiful! I need to remember this as health problems take their toll on my 'normal'. It is good to remember that God is constant even when it feels like everything else is going wrong.

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    1. Yes, Sarah, He is constant and He is good and one day we’ll see it all clearly... the beautiful tapestry He has painted with our lives. Praying that you’ll find strength as you lean into our God in the midst of your health problems.

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  8. Oh my, I think you know how much your words resonate with me. It seems like we were thinking alike, but you have such a way with words. You bless me so!

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    1. Thanks, Marv! Yep, I smiled when I realized we were coming from the same place. Thankful we have God’s peace and each other’s support.

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  9. Hi Carlie, I know what this feels like. Pinning this beautiful story of faith.

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    1. Thanks for the encouragement, Sarah, and for understanding.

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  10. Carlie, this is so beautifully written and full of truth. Inside my abnormal is where by God's grace I find my normal. What an amazing blessing to know He meets us where we are and holds us close. Blessings and hugs!

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    1. Thank you, Deb! So grateful for His comforting presence!

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