Nights were harder for my mom. Perhaps the encroaching darkness worked to heighten her fears to a new frenzy and strangle out the little hope she held on to.
But for me, mornings were the worst.
Mornings, with bright sunshine heralding in a new day, are supposed to bring fresh hope, good news... relief. But each morning, I would dread opening my eyes as the harsh reality sank in.
In the days following the tragedy, I remember trying to catch up with my November Scripture Writing Plan from The Felicity Bee, a focus on Thanksgiving & Gratitude, no less. I would read the scripture, highlight it in my You Version bible app and meditate on it as I carefully wrote it out in my journal. But when I came upon Psalm 30, I struggled.
You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing your praises and not be silent. LORD, my God, I will praise you forever. Psalm 30:11-12
And that wasn't all... as I read more of the Psalm I found this...
'...weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.' Psalm 30:5
Yep, I knew about the weeping, but the rejoicing, I couldn’t envision it yet.
All I could think of at that time was - 'Will there really be a morning?'
Perhaps, you’ve been there. You have gone through or are going through some trial in your life, something unexpected, something you’d rather not have to go through, and you’re wondering will it ever really end. Will you ever feel joy again?
For days, I refused to highlight the passage, yet alone write it out, but I kept coming back to it. I knew in my heart, that I could trust God... that despite my feelings there really will be a morning. A time when I can once again look upon the mercies of my Lord, which are new every morning, and rejoice.
And so, somewhat reluctantly, I highlighted my verse and thoughtfully wrote it out.
And then I trusted God and waited.
And as I waited, I prayed.
I prayed for my mom, for my family, for all those God laid upon my heart, that we would be comforted by His presence through the watches of the night and that we would once again see the beauty of the mornings.
I thought about the patriarchs of the bible, Jesus even, who would rise early to meet with God. And I noticed something, in good times and in tough times; God was always there. I started to see more clearly - Life is hard, but God is here, and when we meditate on the truths of His word and lean into His presence, we can catch glimpses of that morning... that morning when all will be well.
So, my friend, here are a few more morning messages that swell with hope. God in His mercy has filled His word with them. Perhaps He knew how much we would need them... how much we would need to find solace in His promises of a new day to come.
Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life. Psalm 143:8
In the morning, LORD, you hear my voice: in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly. Psalm 5:3
But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble. Psalm59:16
Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days. Psalm 90:14
Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:22-23
I wait for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning, more than watchmen wait for the morning. Psalm 130:6
He wakens me morning by morning, wakens my ear to listen like one being instructed. Isaiah 50:4b
These mornings, I’m rising early and I’m meeting with my God. And I’m finding more and more reasons to rejoice in His word and His world. I share in this post photos taken by my mom who, thankfully and in answer to prayer, is able to peek through the pain and find the beauty of the mornings once again.
My friend, I know right now, you may be experiencing ‘nighttime’, a slew of dark circumstances that you just can’t seem to shake, but God’s love is unshakeable and His presence never leaves us. Take heart, be of good courage and lean into Him; there will be a morning.
Perhaps you’ve caught sight of it already and the hope of it keeps you going. Why not share that hope with someone today? Someone who desperately needs to believe that '...weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.' Psalm 30:5
And even though we might only grasp snippets of that bright, sunshiny joy on our journey here below, God has promised that one glorious day He will come again, and in the light of His presence it will always be morning.
Now, isn’t that something to look forward to?
Casting Crown's 'Glorious Day' is a song that reminds us of that day. It captures the hope and beauty of the gospel message beautifully. I've included a video (from Joe Hohman) for your enjoyment and I've just added the song to the 'from dust towards the heavens' playlist. Hope you enjoy.